Day 32

Today I fell apart.

I woke up late, rushed to work and then was consumed by the madness. You know its bad when you're standing up shoveling eggs down your throat while talking to a coworker about some issue.

Time seemed to be in fast forward today. Everyone wanted a piece of me and I really just needed to shut them out so I could get some shit done. I spend all morning training my buyer on a complicated process. I'm trying to invest the time to set her up for success and give her the confidence to not crumple like the previous one did. Giving that much of yourself is exhausting! Especially when your boss and the rest of the world really don't seem to care that this is crucial to the process. Seriously my boss....I'm five seconds from rippling her a new one. Complete waste of a person.

I look up and then its 12:30 and shit I better get some lunch before I have no time to eat again. The afternoon is crazy busy and I just feel my anger level increasing. I'm so done today and really just need to go home. I really wish I could video tape a day at my job. It should be a reality TV show.

I finally leave at 630. Which means I have an hour drive ahead of me, I'm starving, cranky, have more packing to do, tired, exhausted, and really just running on fumes.

I get in my car, breathe that sigh relief, and then.... I saw it and I completely lost it.

There's a huge fucking crack the length of my forearm in my windshield. What the? How in the hell? ##%&#@#%&% I drive home freaking out the whole way. Of course since all my shit is packed, I can't find my warranty documents. I call the dealer and make an appointment to come in the morning.

I decide that for dinner I'm going to eat a few truffles that I got as a gift. That turned into the entire bag of Lindt truffles. And it was disgustingly delicious. And everything came crashing down. I'm frustrated at work, I'm exhausted, I feel extremely fat, there's too much to do, and I seriously just ate an entire bag of chocolate. I can't even deal anymore. The more I think, the madder I get. So I just take my ass to bed. Probably the best decision I made today.