Day 16

Today had me frazzled. I was miserable when I got up so after feeding Molly, I laid down.....then it was 7am. Shit!!!! I made it to work, grabbed breakfast (eggs with veggies and a bagel), and then into the chaos. I ate breakfast in between calls and trying to answer emails.

Lunch came and I had a sandwich, pita chips, and diet Dr Pepper. I really didn't need the chips considering I had carbs in the form of bread. Next time, no chips. I also realized today with the 10 people we have from India for training, its a stressful even more fast moving environment! I found myself in the candy jar again. Pretty sure I ate 10 pieces. It's like monkey-see monkey-do. You're crammed in a conference room with 11 people and everyone is grabbing chocolate so you mindlessly do too. I gotta bring my water and grab that instead because I barely drank 32 oz today. (Bad Shawna)

I left around 6 and kinda just felt drained. Also mad at myself for not getting up this morning. It seemed to darken my day and I didn't have those endorphins. I told myself we were turning it around this week and first thing when I got home was workout! And workout I did. It was lift day and 1 round of the fighter diet routine. Its still freaking hard! But I told myself this move and then you're on to the next one.

And then....it was over. I did my workout and didn't give up. It felt like the clouds parted and the world was a sunshiney happy place! I instantly felt better about myself. 

Does it suck that 430am is going to come before I know it? 

Absolutely.

Am I going to be brutally sore because of less recovery time?

You betcha.

Will I bitch the entire way to the gym tomorrow? 

Probably.

But it's my own damn fault for not getting up and for dicking around last night instead of going to bed. And tomorrow I may suffer, but oh well. I suffer every time I put on pants and they're freaking tight! I suffer when I feel a bit less than because of my weight. I suffer when I look in the mirror and really want change. 

My ass is getting out of bed tomorrow and going to run on the treadmill.

The end.