Day 8

Today is weigh in day. I started out at 278.8 last week. This morning, I lost 3.6 pounds. Wahoo one week down!

When I think about how far I have to go, its depressing. 109 pounds is such a huge number. I wish I would've taken myself seriously earlier in life or not let go of the progress I made before leaving Cincinnati. But I realize that life is always going to get in the way, there will always be something important and what sustains you are the good lasting healthy habits. If I had those habits, I wouldn't be trying to lose 100+ pounds.

I read an interesting article the other day. I had to share part of it because it basically sums up my fitness journey and what I'm FINALLY realizing. 

GAH! So true. I think about all the things I've learned from my friends. They all don't eat the same way and are into different types of exercise, but everyone has figured out their formula. We all know I'm a perfectionist and researcher extraordinar ;)

Today I am sleepy from all the weekend activities. I had eggs with veggies and completely skipped nasty office coffee. Its just not worth it to me anymore. If I really want a coffee, I'm going to get good coffee before I come in. Over.it!

Lunch was leftover jambalaya. I still have enough left for 2-3 lunches. I'm going to be sick of it after this week. Then the afternoon took a nose-dive into shitdom. I had to stay late. By time I left, I was starving and pissed off. I missed my workout and my poor dog is home waiting to pee. I fought the burger craving with some fruit and a protein bar, but all the way home I was furious.

I'm so tired of work sabotaging my workouts. Don't they know how bad I need that hour to unwind and just do something good for myself? I need to protect that time. My first thought? Just saying the hell with work and no matter what, out the door at 530pm. No different than if I had to run to meet a babysitter. We all know that won't work. 

Looks like its back to 5ams.....now I'm really fucking cranky. But I can't keep missing workouts!