Day 2

Today is the same goal as yesterday. Make better choices and swap out super unhealthy food.

And I started off with a fail. My AC broke so this morning I had to get the dog to daycare and call maintenance. It was 87 in my apartment and only going to get hotter. I was rushing so much I forgot my breakfast so I stopped at a drive thru for iced coffee and McGriddle (someone please explain why these are sooo good!).

Well, I should've checked the calorie count on that and thought about what I was eating. Picking the healthy choice rather than the one that sounds good isn't second nature to me. Let's just say dinner is going to be a protein shake and piece of fruit. :(

Today was a rough day at work. I was mentally drained, but made myself go to weight lifting class. It was full so I set up my mat near the mirrors. The class was hard and seeing my flab flying around in the mirror was a distraction! I was definitely getting pissed after the 3rd set of planks...those damn things are so hard! And ab work? Forget about it! 

Afterwards, I drove home while drinking my protein shake and eating a peach. WHAT A SHITTY DINNER! I am kicking myself for the drive-thru breakfast. I am dying for something savory and salty and comforting.....like a cheeseburger! (Ah!)

 I'm staying strong though. I've been thinking about how many times I did indulge in cheeseburgers after a hard work day and that didn't improve how I felt for long. I'm thinking about some of the moves I couldn't do in class today because of the extra weight. I'm thinking about what I saw in the mirror and how much I want to change that.

I admit I'm an emotional eater, but I never really thought about what that means. It's more than just a love of food (plenty of healthy people that love food), it's like food is my companion. Happy? Let's eat! Sad? Let's eat! Angry? I'm going to show that ice cream who's boss! Because I could've easily came home and made cheeseburgers tonight. It's not that I can't have one either...but I didn't start thinking about one till after the gym. I was tired, hungry, frustrated, and really just wanted some comfort. 

So I'm going to take a bath, hug my puppy, and go to bed before my willpower gives out. Today is over and here's my healthy choice today:

I didn't give up a whole day because of 1 bad meal. And that is good enough.