Today everything fell apart. I had veggie eggs for breakfast, but halfway through, I wanted no part of them. My desk mate also started in early on passing me candy and there were mini donuts. Mini donuts are the devil. You think they're innocent till you noticed you've eaten 5 of those bastards. Then opening my disaster of an email box. I swear the transition from weekend to work mode is like bending over without the courtesy of lube.
By lunch, I was just frazzled. I went down to the cafeteria and if it wasn't for Jenny calling me out and saying she was going to watch me make healthy choices, I would've had cake for lunch. Instead I had pork loin, veggies, and a biscuit. I did get a break in eating lunch with her, but then more crazy.
I couldn't breathe today. It felt like everything was rushed and time flew by. After a pointless meeting, I realized it was 530pm and I still had one more data request that I promised to get out today. FML. It was 730 when I left and I was so mad, I had ice cream for dinner.
I came home and played with the dog for a bit since I felt guilty about leaving her for 12 hours. She was all cuddles too, which made me feel like an asshole. And then I just started feeling bad about everything. My dog, my weight, my bad eating, my lack of time....and I sat in this poor me state for about 20 mins. I can't get anything done, I can't balance, I can't get enough sleep, I'm just always gonna be fat.....
Well fuck. I really just got fed up with myself and I'm not gonna get any sleep so I might as well go grocery shopping. At least I could end the night on a positive. And shop I did!
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