Day 44

Today I made the decision to sleep in. I wasn't picking up Molly till the evening and I was still exhausted, so sleep seemed to be my best bet. I let myself stay in bed till 730am then jumped in the shower and made it to work by 830am.

I got veggie eggs for breakfast, which I ate while doing work. Work is just insane right and I'm pulled in so many directions that it stresses me out. I had a pretty focused day and by time I thought about lunch it was 12:45pm. I got a turkey sandwich and milk. I really don't need the chips, bread is enough carbs and milk is some extra protein. Which in my opinion, I can never eat too much protein.

Then it was back to work. It was a busy day, but feeling strong. Jenny offered me chocolate, actually not just chocolate, Lindt milk chocolate truffle, and I told her no. I think I surprised her as well as myself, but my weekend of gluttony was still fresh in my mind. Plus my pants felt quite tight :/

I think my strategy is going to be using my willpower as long as I have it. I know motivation and will power start to crumble as I get tired, so might as well ride that wave while it's strong. Could I have had chocolate today? Sure. But I know there are bigger struggles as we approach the weekend so why not save my indulgence till then and then overall my week will be better. At least that's my thought for now.

I've also decided that I'm not staying late at work. I'm going to focus hard till 530, maybe 6pm and then I'm out no matter what. The work is going to be there and I need more balance in my life. And with all this running, I need proper rest to keep this schedule up.

Today I left at 4pm to get Molly. We didn't get home till 630pm because of traffic and accidents. I fed Molly, then set up all my workout stuff in my bedroom. I'm pretty proud of this, it was unpacking and putting what I need right in front of my face!

Well after setting up, I got my workout in. My room is big enough for one person to jump around sweating with a dog stretched out on the floor napping. I got through 2 rounds of the fighter diet routine. My god that was rough....and to think I still have to work up to 3 rounds...... 

Then short walk with Molly, shower, and now finishing this post up before bed. Today was a good day. Today was damn sure better than yesterday. I'm realizing the difference between where I am and where I want to be is that "whatever it takes" attitude. I can go to sleep satisfied tonight.